ah, sorry, i saw it, i just don’t know anything about lamotrigine. and the same stuff applies with it; you’ll probably have to wait till you encounter a trigger and just gauge how bad it was and how long it lasted to see if it helps 😅

i think propranolol is a pretty good choice for your situation, actually, i think, if the dose is high enough, and you can tolerate the effects on your blood pressure, then it can probably be very useful after a trigger? it depends on how you take it / the formulation, the short acting works for around 4 hours, but you can get extended release versions too

i took propranolol regularly for a couple of years for essentially the same thing, managing triggers. it was an effective way for me to deaden the intensity of feelings and be more productive handling them, although prolonged use eventually led to that sort of zombie lack of emotions effect. still, it did me a lot of good for the time i was on it

really, unfortunately, you have to evaluate the meds based on how you feel normally on them and when you encounter a trigger. it sounds like your triggers can get quite bad, so intentionally testing it doesn’t seem like a good idea (if you’re even able). you might just keep the propranolol on hand if it happens

in terms of data, i would look at the severity and length of the episodes where you encountered a trigger. ostensibly, the medicine should make it less severe and easier to pull out of. and if it’s not after some time, then it’s probably worth switching

… is this… AI? i’m not like an expert at identifying it or anything but…

need to drop the fact vs fiction sheet for this one

yooo it’s a good one and not super long, really enjoyable, i hope you end up liking it!

poster is transmasc, aren’t they?

did we forget about duskblood already?

the paternalism in this post goes crazy

unrequited but good friends

me too, buddy

ah, good, there’s not much daylight left

me waking up at 5pm:

sorry, not sure if i’m missing something, but you’re saying, when you open up to folks, who are always folks you’re at least somewhat close with, and have previously discussed allowing this sort of emotional venting with, they recoil and have this weird reaction to it?

pretty sleepy but wanted to scribble something for you, sorry it’s shy on details. feel free to ask follow ups

autism maybe? i get these vibes off of what you wrote and what you’re asking

even when someone asks about how you’re doing, check how much emotional labor they’re prepared to put into the convo first (e.g. yeah actually, i’ve been feeling pretty shitty lately, is that something you’d be able to make space to listen to?)

heads up, this starts immediately with loud gunshots lmao

who am i kidding, no one is gonna see this…

you right, i fell for it

why would they give a fuck, they’re getting fucked by the social contract, they get paid twice as much to inherit a burning planet and absolutely no prospects to have a home or even ever leave their childhood home, for the shit thankless work that customer service always has been

all for the “privilege” of making billionaires richer and furthering the destruction of the planet they’re inheriting

tbf, things were going downhill in 2008, but things are fully off the rails now, we at least had delusions of hope back then

fell for it award edit: from limited experience, i’ve found it can be helpful to talk to young folks about the power of organizing and collective action. they’re perpetually burned out from having nothing they can do to improve their circumstances, but this is a powerful avenue that, if communicated properly, can motivate them to become more invested both in their own situations, and that of others

quick check on your basics. sleep, hydration, food, hygiene. make sure they’re square

if you’re good on that front, get a good exercise session in (or work up to it, do a little bit of exercise over the next few days and build up your tolerance)

do something nice for yourself, something that preferably has a sensory component. have a nice meal with good smells and textures, or a warm bubble bath, or wash your blankets and curl up in them, or throw some ASMR on, or… you know, whatever does it for ya

go for a walk when the weather isn’t too hot

good easy ways to pull yourself out of a slight dip. kinda been there myself, this the type of shit i been doing, too

drawing is a wonderful skill that allows you to express ideas in a way that words simply cannot

it really helped me a lot to express the sort of things i was going through when i was depressed. it helped because i could express the feelings without explaining the situation or having to put it in words

do you have friends that would be supportive of your drawings? if you don’t, you could even post them online or here. but i think having a place to show your art and get feedback helps a lot (ofc, if you want to keep your art to yourself, that’s perfectly okay too)

https://drawabox.com/ if you want to give it a try

check out monster hunter (world/rise/wilds) and hop on bow, light bowgun, or heavy bowgun. expect a steep learning curve, but it shouldn’t be bad if you’re used to soulslikes, monhun is just precious with iframes, so it’s a lot tighter to iframes through moves than it is in a typical souls/like

if you pick it up and end up needing a hand, hit me up! always happy to teach people how to hunt

shoutout to demon’s souls for its cracked out magic system, it goes hard lmao

what does that distinction mean to you, aside from the literal wording being different?

oh you mean they’re not diagnosed with depression, they are only reporting higher scores of anxiety and depression, i see