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Ive actually thought about this a lot, specifically since 2020, but for the past 15 years as a white LGBT person.

I think the reason millennials are the ones to make fucked up depression jokes is in part because of the crisis after crisis being shoved in our faces through social media at an extent never really seen before compared to newspaper and TV. But the other part is how we could learn about all the atrocities that have happened. Like, in WWII’s Pacific theater, a lot of that never got discussed in school. Or how Korean war or Vietnam war or even civil rights were all just a footnote after the WWII section which took the bulk of my history class’s time.

I feel the Internet wasn’t mainstream as a kid, at least not in today’s sense. My whole family didn’t get a Facebook till the 10s. And I think millennials got to see past a lot of the propaganda because even the gov hadn’t figured out how to monopolize on the idea. Which I think is why GenZ is turning more fascist. Since the powers that be have figured out how to reach out through YouTube shorts and insta reels or whatever. It’s like it skipped millennials for a minute and swung full force once it figured out how to target a generation who grew up on iPads instead of IRC or AIM chats.

To add to that, the black loves matters movement and civil rights in the 2020 era, is the first time there was an awakening to white folks like me at a deeper level to start researching heavily into what civil rights even meant beyond who MLKJr was and who the Black Panthers even were beside ‘militant black people.’

I feel like the 2020 era was when white millennials as a whole, but also Gen X and Z to a degree, started to really see how much systemic injustice really effects us all, but especially POC and native Americans. I only had a vague awareness of anything up until I was in my 20s.

Now, the more I learn of the struggles, the more I can see how easy it is to be buried by propaganda. So when I hear “make America great again” all I can think is how it was finally starting to be truly great with progressive movements and that my definition of ‘great’ hasn’t even existed before.

And as a final note, that making America great again, to the standards of those who tout that concept as a banner, is to revert to where everyone who’s in the struggle together just goes back into silence and submission.

And that ain’t too great, imo.

We have a weird placement for our apartment. We don’t really have the sun direct in the winter. And no window in the restrooms, unfortunately. I’ve got her at the best window I can try for. Plus, our cat constantly tries to eat her if I place her in any other window. It’s so frustrating.

Lol, could’ve been bad. I hate the new UI.

Noted. We have some orchid food… is that the same as what you mentioned? Google it’s not too helpful with the term ‘orchid dung,’ sorry.

We had trimmed at the dead stalk section. I think my wife threw the brown stalks away. I just did some reading on that word, keiki. Seems you are right with the roots and hopefully we can grow something out of this. It’s heartbreaking. We are trying really hard to keep her alive but we suck at plants and green thumbing. Thank you for your advice though!

Mhm! The bad leaf popped off without issue for my wife. I snipped the stalks down. Hopefully she can recover… The plant, I mean. Not my wife. We both don’t have green thumbs but really want to.

Thank you for the advice!

It popped off on it’s own for my wife 🤦‍♀️

Thank you for your advice!

If you swipe down on the notifs twice, you can edit them to be similar to the previous style.

On topic of your post, fuuuuck everything about their forcing AI, but my biggest gripe is how they moved the audio display (from, like, Spotify or audiobook readers/podcast apps) to the bottom of the lock screen as a tiny bar on the bottom instead of showing me all the info as it did before. It’s super annoying when I swipe to unlock and pause what I’m listening to.

Thank you for your response.

Would you recommend removing the dead leaf…? It seems to be growing new greenery.

I’m actually on my own path and trying to figure out a means to sorta deal with how my thoughts have been turning dark over current politics, in a way. I have yet to read your full post, as I’m at work, but I’ll circle back to it after work if I can.

I quite literally just had a 50min phonecall with a priest this afternoon to discuss attending an episcopal church. Which, turns out, is super chill with a lot of stuff and don’t take things so literal in a lot of cases. In my case, the church I would attend is very affirming and accepting. Some episcopal churches might not be on an individual basis, but the stance of episcopal as a while, far as I have seen, is LGBT accepting.

It’s an offshoot of Catholic, kinda born out of the church of England and Lutheran? I guess. How he explained it to me is that they sorta take the things that make sense and leave the rest. He even said he had no issues with piercings or tattoos, and I’d be welcome as a pierced, tatted trans woman.

As for the biblical sense, there’s a passage I read recently, Galatians 3:28, that felt good enough for me as a tatted up, many pierced trans woman. It reads: Edit: I see you had used this in an argument. My bad. It still seems valid for my overall comment.

28: There is no Jew or Greek, there is no longer slave or free, there is no longer male or female; for all of you are one in Christ Jesus. 29: And if you belong to Christ, then you are Abraham’s offspring, heirs according to the promise.

I dunno if I even believe in any of it, tbh, as I’m agnostic. But lately agnostic and figuring out my place in the world and internally hasn’t been enough on my own and I’ve been furious at the world for being awful and furious at myself for being furious at the world. It’s been a weird sort of place for me.

I dunno if this helps you any, but episcopal is gearing up to maybe be where I need to go to just figure some stuff out. At the very least, it’s a church that has a lot of volunteering and that’s important to me as someone who has a hard time leaving the house.

Not to mention the chip in the brain stuff. I mean, tech-wise, it’s amazing and helped that paralyzed guy… But conspiracy theory-wise?? Like, where are the idiots who flipped out about the 5g cellular stuff? A computer chip implant to the brain could be interpreted as mind control, for sure!

Which reminds me that scientists just altered a baby’s genes to fix some sort of disease in the womb and that’s an extremely fkn slippery slope to eugenics. Tech-wise, amazing. Conspircy-wise, what the FUCK

I like NHL and MLB. Both my teams are on the other side of the country, though. I cannot watch unless I pay out the wazoo. It ain’t worth it. Plus, cable? No thanks. Can’t afford it anyways, really. I used to listen to MLB radio at my old job with the AtBat app but they changed the subscription and it got too expensive.

Plus, it’s just not accommodating to people like me. I mention liking a team and I get bombarded with questions like “who was the 2nd baseman during 1998?” Or “what’s the current batting average for the designated hitter?” Or “who’s the coach right now?”

Like I have to prove I’m a ‘true fan.’ I don’t care about that. I see ball go fast, and get hit out the park, it is fun. I see a hockey player toss a puck across the ice, it is fun. I love games but I don’t know who the developer is by name. Just the company. Dunno where the best loot chest was in the dungeons of Oblivion/Skyrim/whatever. I just enjoy things the way I enjoy them.

After work, I’d rather spend time reading or playing video games or playing an instrument. Watching ads on TV makes me want to pull my eyes out with a fork. Ads on anything.

Overall… expensive. Ad breaks. And sports fans are not a welcoming bunch. Communities for them are awful, and filled with the kind of men who don’t realize it but have every stat memorized and have to belittle everyone about it to prove they’re the highlander of sports. The one and only true fan. No thanks.

Thank you for the response. I will add these to my list and try to track them down.

Ooop, caught my mistake hah. Thanks! I’ll edit it. Dunno why I put Rome lol. Her poems are interesting though. The whole “Sappho and her friend” take is legitimate but I think she was at least bi, though. With lines like:

“Although clumsy, Mnasidica has a more shapely figure than our gentle Gyrinno”

Or,

“The gods bless you May you sleep then On some tender Girl friend’s breast”

I think about her poetry often haha. Though my favorite is:

“Although they are Only breath, words which I command are immortal”

Fuckin iconic 👑

Valid insight, I appreciate it.

Weird question, do you have any reading sources geared toward your analysis? Philosophical or otherwise? It’s … An oddly specific question, sorry. I mean more in a broad strokes sort of way, if off the top of your head you might know a book or two relating to what you’re saying in-depth. I have seen some solid breakdowns of how western culture swings that way, but no books I can read.

Thanks!

I’m more of a passing interest in manga; currently with ones called Blade of the Immortal (Omnibus), Star Blazers 2199 (Omnibus) and I’m following a vampire one called Happiness. I started Berserk, but haven’t gotten far, too. I’ve been trying to find a cheap copy of Planetes because it’s been highly recommended to me.

Besides the above, I’ve never really read much of it. I tried one that was supposed to be a romance but it was a harvest spirit fox-girl? That one grossed me out.

But I will for sure look into that one and maybe add that to my list! Thanks for the recommendation!

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Big Joel did a solid breakdown of how pro-fasc 300 was. Shamed to admit I never realized it when I watched when I was young and it was new. I was just like, oooo slow-mo fight scenes, epic!

It’s also, like, super gay in hindsight. Super, super gay. I never fully understood how it was so idolized by men back then when it was basically just slow-mo bros with huge muscles all greased up and stuff.

Military history is for the, well, history-obsessed nerds. But Greece is for the gays. Norse is for the fantasy-obsessed nerds. Rome is both for the gays and history-obsessed nerds.

… It’s me. I am the gay, fantasy-obsessed, history-obsessed nerd.

I just bought Memoirs of Hadrian by Marguerite Yourcenar, a historical-adjacent retelling of Hadrian from his own perspective based on texts written at the time. And I, too, think of the Romans every day.

I also picked up The Anglo-Saxon Chronicles, which is a history of England from the early, early years onward (The Last Kingdom TV show discusses King Alfred’s Chronicles, this is that book). Trying to find a good source for The War of Roses, and a copy of Graham Turners art of the period.

I read Sappho to my wife as she fell asleep on arm. That’s Greek and gay!

Plus I’m juggling Matemorphosis by Ovid (Roman myths), another Anglo-Saxon book, two mangas, The Count of Monte Cristo, and The Stormlight Archives bk 2 which is the main reading focus. All while I’m trying to find a copy of Poetic Edda for Norse poetry, too.

Gay, fantasy-obsessed, history-obsessed nerd, with a likely serving of fkn ADD, yeesh,